Hi! As many of you already know my name is Gabby McLean and I’m studying ETA at Rose Bruford. It has been a week since I’ve moved in and already it feels more like home and it only took a few late night cries. Additionally my flat mates are really nice people and no one has set anything on fire yet. Brilliant!

In the true style of freshers I have had many the hangover and the flu is rife in the flats. As this is a drama school many first years live together in one block of flats which, as you can imagine, is very theatrical. It appears one can never have too much ABBA or random bursts into song in a drunken stupor on the streets of Sidcup. It has to be seen to be believed.

My main continuous thought is how privileged I am to be here, after hours of work and years of acting I can finally say I am a drama student. Everyone tells you how impossible it is to get in, and as a socially in-adept girl who was always cast as villains and boys (or both at the same time) it seemed always out of reach . My confidence has always been held back and for many a reason, so to be studying at this school is beyond what I ever hoped to achieve.

My reasons for this blog are varied, firstly is that I always wanted to have a decent blog to carry on and look back at. I also want to keep motivated through my year and change my bad organisation as well as give information to people who want to know about the drama school experience. It hopefully will also show that no matter your mental illness or disability that not giving up can finally get you where you want to be (soppy I know).

This week has already been a fantastic one with fantastic people, so I hope I can share my experience along the way with you.

All the best,

Gabby (The anxious actor)

“I learned that my sadness never destroyed what was great about me. You just have to go back to that greatness, find that one little light that’s left. I’m lucky I found one little glimmer stored away.” – Lady Gaga on Depression



My name is Gabby McLean and I am currently studying European Theatre Arts at the Rose Bruford School of Performance. Throughout my life I have struggled with anxiety and depression which is something many of us actors have, but in making this blog I want to entertain and serve to people regardless of your mental illness you can follow your dreams.

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